| Probably our birthday. 1951. 11,15,17. |
| July 1941, Front lawn, 14, Lindhurst Lane, Mansfield, with Dad. Ages: 1,5,7. |
| Averil, possibly 1936/7 |
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| In fact, probably my 90th! |
And so .... my 92nd has come and gone with me in reasonable state for a
nonagenarian, though the atrial fibrillation does tend to make me breathless
during exertion! The memory is OK, though fraying at the edges, while the outer
appearance is gradually crumbling despite restorative attempts and disguise. All
in all, the verdict is ‘Could be worse’ which sounds self-congratulatory but
is more self-reassurance! Meanwhile, as part of the doomed efforts to keep
looking as I did ten years ago, I acknowledge that time cannot linger, while the waist proceeds to thicken
and the hair to thin.
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| Emily Bronte, from a painting by brother Bramwell. |
“This dark night has won me/ To wander far away/ Old feelings gather fast upon me/ Like vultures round their prey. “
| Some of 'the gang'. During my growth spurt at perhaps 12 or 13. |
My memories are not vulture-dark and overall, the childhood I recall was full of happy hours with two sisters and a mother I loved who tried so hard to protect us from our father, and give us all she could. I fondly recall the carefree play with the gang of boys with whom we shared imaginative games and unthinking hours of just being together. But life was lived beneath a canopy of fear at times, though mostly, it was just watchful apprehension which needed to be maintained. Once, we had all been playing ‘in the wood’ next-door to our house, our main playground, and as we wandered homeward, I carelessly and completely untypically, broke a piece off the log fence of the garden opposite our house. I had no idea why I had done it, but it was on the spur of the moment and didn't seem to involve any thought about what I was doing. The fence belonged to the retired Superintendent of Police with the big car, whom I didn't know but of whom we were much in awe. I was horrified when the voice of his unseen wife shouted, “You naughty girl. I’m going to tell your father.” Heart thudding against ribs, I desperately tried to apologise. When Mrs. Superintendent, outraged, arrived at the scene of her fence desecration, one of the boys just said, briefly,to her, “He'll kill her!"
| All girls together in 1945, with friend Pamela. |
She didn’t speak as Esme and I crossed the lane to go home but strangely, we never did hear any more of it and after several days, I stopped worrying though I took care to avoid the neighbours opposite whose fence henceforth remained beyond even my psychological reach!
| Family party, possibly an end of war celebration, 1945. |
| Mum, born April 1902, in 1952. |








































